Going to launch a website for art stuff in May, and I may change my mind but I think I’m going to go by my legal name for ‘professionalism’s' sake. Plus I like the look of, amandacruickshank.com. Fuck the haters.
Hey, ok, honestly here: The dominant narrative of most punk is a bunch of jack-off machismo social reaffirmation and the initial things that attracted me to it like politics and change are a total fucking farce.
But that being said the music itself is so cathartic and has so much potential for upping the marginalized and ignored. Idk.
I had a dream last night that started off with a very brief segment. In which, I was exciting a subway and a man at the turn stiles told me he needed to see my ID if I wanted to exit the subway. I showed him my old art school ID and he kept drilling me with questions as if I was lying and proding about my gender.
Then the dream phased over to the main part, where I was hanging out with my best friends’ partner. His partner is a very rich and privileged young white lady, and we were at her parents house. She told me she had a gift certificate for the grocery store I could use some of to stock up on food and stop starving my butt off. When we got to the grocery store she had made a phone call and told me “The gift card has 5000$ on it so I could pick up whatever I want,” And she wandered off bored as I anxiously tried to pick out food. (I have trouble picking up everything I need even when I can afford it in stores) But then the power went off in the grocery store and everyone head for the exit so I just left with all the food for free..